Amateur Poems

This page contains a few of the poems that I have written over the years.

There are some darker poems and they may be sensitive to some readers. Feel free to skip them.

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Romance Poems

Our First Kiss

When I think about you, I think about the first time we kissed

I was so scared

I reminisced

But, you made me feel like you cared.

You and I knew that I was unskilled

You chose me

I was thrilled

I hope you agree

Being with you is a gift

I couldn’t be happier

Don’t let me drift

I sometimes put up a barrier

But, if you want me then I’ll want you

For now, let’s just enjoy the view

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Something New

Your love is like a drug

I can’t get enough of your touch

We lay on the rug

Outside glancing at the stars a bit too much

My head rests on your chest

We talk for hours and hours without a breath

Asking you for a simple request

You hug me slightly to death

I kiss your hand softly

We smile the entire time

Tell me you love me unconditionally

And you’ll be my prime

We fit like a glove

You are someone I’d never get rid of

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Race

Scraping your skin

Stuck on top of you

I moved in

I didn’t have a clue

I’m out of breath

I feel your heart racing

I’m scared to death

You and I are facing

You push yourself against me

I kiss you aggressively

I feel free

You touch me carefully

Take all of me

I won’t flee

-Ciska Oosthuizen

All About You Baby

Dark chocolate eyes

Shining in the night

No need to over analyze

You’ve got splendid height

Strong arms

With a caring heart

Those sexy charms

You’re a work of art

Calming voice

Gentle hands

You give me no choice

I love all your strands

It’s all about you baby

I’m happy

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Missing You

Sitting here alone

Staring out of a beautiful window

Smelling your cologne

Seeing your shadow

Missing those warm arms

Remembering those soft lips

Wanting to touch those palms

It feels like an everlasting eclipse

Counting down the days

Until we can meet again

You are the sun rays

My feelings, I must contain

Missing you everyday

But that’s okay

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Missing You #2

Baby, my heart is broken

My favourite piece is missing

My love is stolen

What we have is a blessing

I want you now

It is so unsatisfying

I will get to you somehow

This feeling is so terrifying

Come to me

Don’t let me go

I love you like crazy

But, let’s go slow

Kiss me baby

I’ll be your only

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Inside

Your mind is full of intensity

Complicated sea of notions

But, we’ve got good chemistry

It stretches as far as the ocean

You are hard on yourself

You need that extra protection

My love’s in a jar on the shelf

You worry about your sense of direction

Take your time

I’m right here for you

Start the climb

Take in the view

Through thick and thin

Find what you are looking for within

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Broken Love Poems

Manipulation

Stop crying you are so weak

I love you more as we speak

I hate the way you are

I still love you, you’re my superstar

You’re so bleak

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Psychotic

I’m incredibly attached

I know she is insane, but she is my perfect match

Lay your hands on her and you die

I’ll make sure you cry

I’m the sponge in her blood bath.

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Addiction

I strongly strive for you every night and every day

But the pain just won’t go away

The more you struck me the more I wanted you obsessively, to accept me, to love me, to hug me, and to kiss me

I’m caught in the chains by which you hold me

You’ve used me more than I can count

Lied to me more than the earth’s paramount

Shut me out more times than a thousand doors

Ignored me like a chore

Yelled at me endlessly

and pressured me constantly

There was and is still so much pain but never any gain

The dagger you pushed through my bloody organ was always kind to you

It showed my compassion for you

It forgave you multiple times even though you never deserved it

After all that time you still are indifferent

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Envy

The darkest part of me

The green monster

Life is never a guarantee

It will cost her

My head is spinning out of control

Pick her already, I know you want to

I’m always the second goal

I feel so blue

Waves of despair

Carved deep into my veins

I prefer solitaire

Stuck in emotional chains

Pick her already! I know you want to!

You, her...and your sexy tattoo!

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Sick Bastard

Colourful spots

Blue and purple

She is always in knots

It is a continuous circle

Salty tears in her eyes

Dry skin

No allies

Playing the sad violin

The house trembles

You sick bastard

She rebels

Pieces are scattered

Run pretty lady

Take the baby

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Definition Poem: Love

Love n. 1. An intense feeling of desire or affection towards something or someone. 2. Sharing your vulnerability and being open with someone you know. 3. Love is patient, / tick tock goes the clock, the siren screams and it is you, / love is kind, / my secrets were known by everyone, / love is honest, / her name is on your phone again but you say you don’t care, yet you text her anyway, / love is beautiful, / the flowers you never gave me wilted away and burned into flames, / love is forever, / the sledgehammer crushed the door to my heart, your empty promises floated in the air like haunted ghosts, everything you touch turned into dust, your feet treaded along my missing heartbeat, / you do not hear me, / “It’s just your opinion” he’ll say, / love is everything /

If love was everything, then we would be buried.

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Other Poems

We Once Were

We were friends once

Until we weren't

It was all a matter of time until you decided I was the enemy

We became worse than frenemies

You used your words like an arrow and shot it at a target

Only, the target was me

Your wicked tongue infected those who chose not to see

They sat silent in the midst of war

Your voice was loud but your heart was quiet

Your words were sharp but not honest

Your intentions warped by your deeper pain

Yet, I get the blame

I wanted you to stay but you ran away

You wanted to live in a fantasy

Where you ruled to defeat me

But, you were only fighting yourself

Now, I say thank you

I grew because of you

I saw who you are

I saw your heart

We were friends once

Now, we aren't

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Silence

Roaring like thunder

Out of anger

Out of resentment

Out of jealousy

Two seated in the middle

Not a single word uttered

Why are you silent?

Do you not have a mind of your own?

Shaking inside

Holding my breath

Do you hear the broken words?

Do you see the truth?

You choose not to see

You choose not to hear

You choose not to defend

You choose to be false

I see the reality now

I did not see before

I see now that I was already in a silent war

I did not notice until this moment

Had I noticed

It would not have changed

A single thing

It was not me

but it was you

-Ciska Oosthuizen

Coward

Three days

Three nights

I did not see you

I did not hear you

You ran away

Hid underneath someone else's covers

No words were spoken

You did not look me in the eyes

My feet were firm on the ground

My face directly staring at yours

I lived on like you weren't gone

Whisper little one

Whisper your false words

Rule your tiny platform

The platform of which you do not own

The platform of which you seek approval from

Your servants are the same as you

No better, no worse

You are but an ungrateful human

Living a resentful life

-Ciska Oosthuizen